Fighting Back to Fitness

Tired…. It’s hard being crap.

I’ve played around for the last few weeks, having so/*me good weeks, having some bad, getting some long rides in, missing others.  My training calendar is so full of red it’s demotivating.  It obscures the successes, such as a 150k ride, actually getting into the pool for the first time in over a year! And also I’ve done some regular bike commuting.

However, my dabbling has given me some hunger back.  – yay go me!
I had a bit of a change in mindset this week – I actually got to the gym at lunch! And then backed it up with the first turbo for a while.  Shame I was crap on the turbo, with my heart rate up, power down, and failing mid interval.  My brain has been stuck believing I should be better – where I was 2 years ago.

When I failed / cracked yesterday, 2 mins into a 5 min interval, I did not get off, or give up in a huff.  I rode easy for 30 seconds, knocked it down a gear, and cracked on, just not quite as hard. Then, for the last minute, back into the target gear and go.  It’s a little thing, but it’s a sign my brain /enthusiasm is back to where it was.

Is it a coincidence that this is coinciding with me actually flipping back to be a developer rather than manager?  I feel the 2 are linked

One wrung me out and consumed me, the other gives me energy to spare.

I am not where I was, I ache, the weeks ahead will be filled with effort, tiredness and pain but I am so looking forward to it.

So, it’s Wednesday, 4 degrees and it’s pissing down.  I decided to skip the commute, but packed the kit for a lunchtime session, and swim kit for a swim on the way home.  I will get there!

The graph of fitness (blue) is also heading up, with much fewer 0 days…..

Finally, Tcr no5 registration needs to be done 🙂