Tired…. It’s hard being crap.
I’ve played around for the last few weeks, having so/*me good weeks, having some bad, getting some long rides in, missing others. My training calendar is so full of red it’s demotivating. It obscures the successes, such as a 150k ride, actually getting into the pool for the first time in over a year! And also I’ve done some regular bike commuting.
However, my dabbling has given me some hunger back. – yay go me!
I had a bit of a change in mindset this week – I actually got to the gym at lunch! And then backed it up with the first turbo for a while. Shame I was crap on the turbo, with my heart rate up, power down, and failing mid interval. My brain has been stuck believing I should be better – where I was 2 years ago.
When I failed / cracked yesterday, 2 mins into a 5 min interval, I did not get off, or give up in a huff. I rode easy for 30 seconds, knocked it down a gear, and cracked on, just not quite as hard. Then, for the last minute, back into the target gear and go. It’s a little thing, but it’s a sign my brain /enthusiasm is back to where it was.
Is it a coincidence that this is coinciding with me actually flipping back to be a developer rather than manager? I feel the 2 are linked
One wrung me out and consumed me, the other gives me energy to spare.
I am not where I was, I ache, the weeks ahead will be filled with effort, tiredness and pain but I am so looking forward to it.
So, it’s Wednesday, 4 degrees and it’s pissing down. I decided to skip the commute, but packed the kit for a lunchtime session, and swim kit for a swim on the way home. I will get there!
The graph of fitness (blue) is also heading up, with much fewer 0 days…..
Finally, Tcr no5 registration needs to be done 🙂